sometimes i just wonder, what if i am some uneducated child, who happens to fail all of the major exams? what if i didn't go into medicine? what if i decided to become useless? what if i didn't make it to my graduation? what if i just disappear?
because clearly i think people just care so much about me because of my degree and grades. what if i don't have any of them?
will i be happier than i am now?
what's there to lose?